Soul Expansion: “From the Stage” Part 3

The intensity of this journey is profound and honestly hard to put into words.

I knew going into it that this was about so much more than actually getting up and performing on stage. It was more than facing the fear of being put on the spot or “performing” in front of people. On some level, I knew it was going to be a process of unraveling ~ letting go of old versions of myself that no longer serve me.

I also knew it would be daily soul work. A deeper practice than I’ve been used to.

In a way, it feels like training, for lack of a better word… training and practicing a new state of being. Embodying the woman I want to be. Feeling my way into this new identity, this new version of myself. And it really does feel like training ~not on a physical level, but on a soul level.

I’ve done scary things before. For instance, I trained for the Big Sur Marathon, and that required mindset, discipline, and deep intention to be ready for race day. It was about so much more than the run itself. It was about tapping into what I needed to believe about myself and what I was capable of…knowing I had it within me and using both old and new tools to support me along the way.

So here I stand, training for a new kind of marathon.

One of confidence. One of allowing myself to feel safe. Releasing the ties to anxiety in my body that has been holding me back.
One of welcoming my worthiness of being seen and heard.

This has been such a beautiful awakening for my soul. I feel more connected to the Universe now than I did even just two weeks ago. I’ve been using familiar tools like meditation and journaling, but I’ve also been introduced to new ones — activation and more in depth soul work — guided by a new spiritual teacher of mine, Sara Garafalo.

Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve also been introduced to shows and books that feel like perfect reinforcements for everything I’m experiencing. New friends have offered gentle reminders ~ like coming back to my breath. Yes, I know… it’s funny how something so simple can suddenly land as if you’re hearing it for the first time. I always thought I was already so conscious of using my breath to ground myself.

What I’m really practicing is presence. Conscious presence, as often as I can each day.

Because in the end, that’s my goal ~ to be on stage fully present. With the people in front of me. With myself. With my voice. So that my light, my joy, and my love can move through me in whatever form feels true in that moment ~speaking, singing, playing guitar.

I’ve also consciously chosen to go to the beach every day. To feel my connection to the Universe and divine energy. To remember — and feel — that I am one with all that is.

This journey, From the Stage, has already been so much more than I could have imagined.

I haven’t fully gotten up there yet. Tonight, I’ll practice my full performance — an introduction, a little something about why this experience is so special to me, two songs, and potentially, if there’s time, a poem I wrote several years ago. A poem that feels incredibly aligned with everything I’m doing right now.

I don’t know how it will go.

But I feel my confidence building. I can imagine how I want it to unfold. This feels like a process of letting go — shedding old layers, old stories, old attachments that no longer serve me.

I feel ready to step into this new version of myself. Free from anxiety and feelings of unworthiness or not feeling safe.
The woman who has caught up with her highest timeline.
Knowing I have everything within me.
Knowing I am right on time.

Stay tuned…